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• My Life As Myself •

The creator of this blog is currently trying to be a proper adult. Here, they try to figure out life through photography, writing, music and the occasional existential crisis. Enjoy.

• My Life As Myself •

The creator of this blog is currently trying to be a proper adult. Here, they try to figure out life through photography, writing, music and the occasional existential crisis. Enjoy.

coping mechanisms.

I went from being guilty and hating myself, to being indifferent and hating you.

I can't stand the thought of you anymore, it enrages me to my core. But I'm still anxious everytime you just show up out of nowhere like nothing ever happened; and it all makes me incredibly sad.

I imagine how much you hate me right now - how every time you glance at me there's a new thought of rancor and resentment. I guess you think I'm the one who ruined everything, even if everything was already broken.

But I don't really hate you; even though you must still really hate me.

So I stand here, avoiding your gaze; writing down all my feeling as to not go crazy, just to keep from hating myself all over again.

 

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