people who don't believe in me
people who stopped giving a damn:
I try time and time again
but you barely speak to me now.
there's so much stuff going on,
and I want you to be a part of it
like you used to.
so I made an effort to connect.
you gave me shit for it;
and didn't even take the time to say goodbye.
what am I supposed to do?
I can't keep begging for one more little meaningless chat,
hoping that'll make us good again.
it all hurts too goddamn much,
and now I have to stop
even if I don't want to.
I don't like to give up
I don't want to leave behind the ones that once made me feel safe;
but I guess things haven't been like they used to be.
I think I have to meet other people either way.
I need someone who knows me,
someone who wants to keep up.
'cause you fell behind long ago;
you don't tell me what you've dreamt anymore.
and even admitting that I might have to let you go
feels like putting four sharpened knives through my aching chest.